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I REALLY fell off the wagon and its totally run me over several times! I just cannot get back on track! I know what I need to do yet it just runs away.. I keep saying I’ll start over tomorrwo and tomorrow and tomorrow.. I have no one to blame but myself! I’ve been lazy.. and given in to my sweet/junkfood tooth so much I bet I’ve been eating 3000 calories a day or better! I dread weigh in tomorrow.. by some miracle last week I lost a 1 lb.. this week.. NOPE Im pretty sure its a gainer.. bloated, cranky, not eating good.. not working out.. umm.. see the problem!

On a positive note.. well a few of them..

a. I know I can eat 3000 calories a day and not put on a ton of weight real quick..I mean I wont be hungry for the rest of my life.. one day I’ll be able to eat out and junk etc.. and not gain it all back.. as long as I dont do it DAILY!  I’m still maintaining which is awesome, but I want to LOSE the last 30 lbs!!

Sooo.. here’s to tomorrow.. another new day! One Im gonna actually start over as DAY 1! Wish me luck!! I need it! ( and a good swift kick in the butt.. and some duct tape to hold me on the wagon! )

Sooo I finished 13 out of 18 in uor biggest loser challenge at work! Ughh.. 3 pounds in 3 months! I have GOT TO get back on track.. Sooo yesterday started a new challenge.. No money this time just kinda nudging each other along with weekly weigh ins and seeing who can lose the most by May 1st.. I refuse to finish at the end of the pack this time!! Sooo my goal is to lose 10 lbs in April! I have 30 to go.. so 10 is a good start! NOw I just gotta find my motivation.. I know its laying around here somewhere!! Oh crap.. there it is.. in my top drawer.. its this thing called a SWIM SUIT! EEEKKKK!!!

Today is weigh in.. Im dreading it.. I dont know why I have come to hate this day so much.. maybe because I have been tryin so hard for so long and getting nowhere.. I”ve tried all the tricks.. and Im stuck.. within a 5 lb range I keep gaining and losing.. ughh.. we’ll see! I wasnt going to eat anything this morning.. or drink.. until I got to weigh in.. but it seemed silly to be mean to myself like that soooo… here I go.. wish me luck!

Ok yep it’s followed by a but.. I did eat horribly today.. Yesterday I ate way under cals and today well I went way over.. maybe they will even out. ugh Im frustrated with myself because I dont even have an excuse.. I was just lazy and didnt want to have to fix anything so I ate what was available.. I knew better.. but I cant change it sooo I suck it up and keep on going on..

I got in only 32 ounces of water today and 64 ounces diet coke. grr

I did however ( and here comes the but part) get in a 55 min workout tape that has me seriously shaking.. maybe that will help alittle with what I ate.. maybe ( fingers crossed)

Soooo thats my day in a nutshell.. not the greatest but Im trying I really am!!

Ok so I decided today to cut back on carbs.. The websites I’ve been searching say not to go over say 20 carbs daily for a few weeks to see quick results.. ( yes I need them NOW because I am in a weight competition and I have not done so good!) sooo.. I post my foods for today feelin pretty darn good.. only to find out each cup of iceberg lettuce has 2 grams of carbs! Ughh.. sooo.. that 6 cups of lettuce cost me 12 carbs?? ughhh.. what am I suppose to eat?? FRUSTRATED!!

I have 4 weeks left in this challenge for work and well Im up to like 15 out of 18 ughh.. I was in the top 10 for a whole week.. then whamo I gained 5 lbs 2 weeks ago.. and 2 lbs last week.. This week I lost 3 lbs. So in order to get back in this competition I am gonna have to seriously get my head on straight.. my trouble is exercise.. I HATE to exercise.. I love the way it feels once its done, but… getting started is another story! ohhh boy.. I gotta get it in gear!!

Well I have a friend who does alot of alternative medicine type stuff.. lately I’ve really been dealing with alot of fibramyalgia pain.. I hate to take meds so I just deal with it the best I can. He suggested a detox diet and well.. I made it 1/2 a day! Yep I just can’t do it! Sooo.. yesterday he suggested I do an epsom salt soak nightly.. Its suppose to draw toxins out of my body and tighten my skin.. reduce swelling and pain.. etc.. Soooo I hopped online and did a tad of research. Sounds like Epsom salt has alot of uses I did not know about..

Tonight I tried it. I dont feel tighter skin right away.. he said that takes repeats and time.. but I do feel more relaxed and the swelling in my joints went down quite a bit! I’m thinking this is my excuse to get away each night for 30 minutes and just relax.. If it tightens my skin WOOHOO>> Im beyond all for it! If it eases the pain I am definatly all for it! Sooo.. we will see! I’ve tried worse and if nothing else Im only out $3!

Oh me oh my sweets are my downfall! But I have a friend who has given me a key to eating something sweet fairly cheap and good! Kemps Frozen Yogurt Parfaits! MMM>>> they have around 160 calories ( check the back some are higher) and are GOOD!!! They are single serve and my local grocery store had them on sale 10 for $10 this week.. MMMMM…

My other curb has been fat free whipped topping and blue berries.. YUMMM..

Ok just wanted to share anyone got anything else I can use?? Im up for ideas!!

Its not been the greatest eating day but definatly not the worst either. I forgot breakfast and ate a meatloaf sandwich for lunch. My exercise is going to be The 30 day Shred.. tonight before bed.. and keeping up with my preschool kids today! They have sooo much energy its unreal! If only I had PART of it! hehe.. Soo I’m off to make today a good day! Its a struggle to keep on track but well worth it in the end!

So I pretty much went MIA for real… Fitness took a back burner to the holidays.. emotions.. mess.. Its been crazy for me. Sooo Im jumping back on track. I joined a biggest loser group at work.. paid my $20.. and here I am.. It started Jan 1 and Ends April 1.. I’ve lost.. 1 lb!! Now I lost like 8 then gained 7 back. ughhh.. Sooo I need to get back on track. I love to eat.. there I said it.. I eat prolly 1800 plus calories most days so cutting back the rest of the weight should just fall off right?? NOT.. Im the person who can starve herself and gain weight.. its not fair! But I need to be accountable sooo Im crawling back. I have a month to lose this weight and get back in the running on this contest. I do not want to finish in the last 5 of 18. To beat our first place right now I’d have to drop 16 lbs.. which is actually do-able.. I just have to pushhhhhh… sooo here i am asking you guys to PUSH me.. who’s up to the challenge?? No excuses accepted!!